dedicated to someone i love and care so much

When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.
When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.
Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.
The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.
If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.
Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.
Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.

But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen.
I do believe that soul mates do exist.
That there is truly someone made for you.
But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.
We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love...BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly..

was i too harsh.. ?

another one for the record... i ran 6 rounds, flollowed by walking 1 round, then followed by another 6 rounds... + a 200m sprint... yup tats all.. aching like mad... tiring...

*sighz* heavy heart.. was i really too harsh... trying to be more understAnding... now i've lost a fren... ghesh...

Would you be there . . . .

this is another simple song with simple lyrics but so meaningful and touching...

Would you be There. . . .

If I were blue, would you be there for
me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay,
Would you stand by me, let me hold you
tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance
with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and
care
Would you die for me, would you run
with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there


If I'm away, would you still think of
me?
And wished that you could hold me
now.
Would you die for me, would you run
with me,
all the way

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul
tonight?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
there,
to kiss my pain away.

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul
tonight?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
there,
to kiss my pain away.

Would you be there,
for me.

my excercise regime

something to keeep me going...


ran 6 rounds.. walked one round... ran another 4 rounds again... then walk 2 rounds... considered it done that i went fora 5km jog :P
heheh

dead beat now...

hmm be4 that went for my 2nd interview with stan chart... ghesh so scary.. wasnt prepared to be bombarded with questions agAin... thought i was juz going to do some numerical tests.. but it turned out i was bein interviewd by 2 ang mos.. a lady and a guy... they were very nice.. but somehoe i still find a point in time i was confusing them with my fast answer :P hahah

hope it went well... keeping fingers crossed!!!

oh well another day has passed... sianz! i neeed incomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

wonder how MC C is doing... ghesh... kinda miss his sexy voice hahahah

alritey niteeeeeeee

another day of itnerview

pwhahahahah time juz flies... a week since i last blogged?!!!

juz came back from an itnerview with stan chart for the position of document analysts

JOB WATCH

Standard Chartered is committed to diversity and inclusion. We believe that a work environment which embraces diversity will enable us to get the best out of the broadest spectrum of people to sustain strong business performance and competitive advantage. By building an inclusive culture,each employee can develop a sense of belonging, and have the opportunity to maximise their personal potential.

ROLE: Documentation Analysts

DEPARTMENT: Markets Operations Documentation

BUSINESS FUNCTION: Technology & Operations


SCOPE OF ROLE:

To support the rapid growth within our Derivatives Front Office in a broad range of Derivatives products ranging from FX Options, Interest rates, Commodities, Equities, Credit Derivativites.


KEY RESPONSIBILITIES/CHALLENGES:
Producing outgoing transaction documentation for vanilla and complex derivatives transactions supporting all global regions within the Structured Outgoing team.

Management of production workflow ensuring all trades are issued within the Service Level Agreement (SLA).

Develop relationships with the various internal vendors (for example, Middle Office, Front Office, Legal and Customer Services Groups) in ensuring all due diligence is performed in preparation for deal execution to be proceed.

Assist in production of various reports to be presented to Senior Managements.
Heavy involvement with project initiatives to improve the Documentation platforms.
Management of operational risks within the daily processes.

Developing and implementing of innovative solutions, providing value added support to new markets and new products.

Continually seeking new opportunities for improvement for personal and professional development within the team and across the bank.

SELECTION CRITERIA:
Possess a mathematical, engineering or science based degree.
Ability to demonstrate strong analytical and problem-solving skills.
Ability to display strong communication and inter-personal skills.
Appetite to learn and adapt into a fast-paced and ever-changing environment.

You may consider your application unsuccessful if you do not hear from us within 6 weeks.



hmmm sounds interseting & challenging? well at least the interview jessie was a nice lady.. bettter then some idotic egoistic mr david chen... *BLEHZ*

dun wan to remember...

anyway i juz got a call from stan chart again! for the 2nd interview on the numerical tests section... gosh alittle freaky... coz i think im loosing the hang of it when it comes to reasoning and numbers.. its tmr at 530... well see how it goes... no pressure!! :)

after the interview in the morning i went for my session at perfect... today was the water retention machine thingy... ghesh not sure if it works la.. but i realy haf a very high percentage of water retention in my body... go away!!!! an a lighter side! my fat percentage % dropped to 18.2!!! wooo hooooooooooo i gotta keep tat up and keep excercising... ghesh tmr supposed to go excercise...has been putting it off for the week already... anyway meeting bb later... been alittle grumpy these days.. maybe coz im juz tired... alrite... tats all for the day... nothing muz happened for the past few days... xcept tat i was drunk n high hahaha :P

and on a good side.. MR C is ok! we're talking again.. but i guess he's been too busy with his projects.. havent heard from him in awhile... ok till then...

nothing

alright since i haf a little time, i shall write alitte... hmm quite hectic and exciting these past 2 days...

on tues morning i went for my interview at mtv asia, as usual i was alittle alte, but luckily the interviewer was later :P hmmm but it ended so fast... anywayz dun think i will get the job hahah

so headed down for work ... and at the end of the day had a last min decision to go swimming on impulse.. but its worth it...

I SWAM 20 LAPZ NON STOP!!!! WOOHOOO SO PRUOD OF MYSELF!!! I GOTTA KEEP IT UP!!! FEELING THE SLIMMING TIGHS!!!

bathed, watched tv did my research on my next interview @ hp when suddenly MR C called again... haiz... thought it would be a nice conversation but it didnt turn out well.. *SORE* darn it! anywayz zzzzz shant tok abt it...

wednesday comes.... morning i went for my interview at HP alexandra... hmmmm the interviewer ms toh lay peng.. realli looks like candyce sister... i wonder... :P

anyway doubt i will get the job too.. didint reali answer the questions well enuff...i realli need to buck up!!!

yea so eaded off to work again... end of the day waitied 4 bb to finish his interview beside my office at great eastern.... then we headed to central mall for dinnner @ tcc where i had my first indulge of the day! pasta bolognise!! yummmy!!!

but i need to stop! :P

k walked for awhile be4 we went home by NEL... again tooo tired till i feel asleep and had to wake up to do my research ard 4+...

thursday comes, which is now!!! .... ghesh the days juz fly past lik nobody biz...:P

headed to ST electornics at boon lay for my unexpected interview... haiyoh i need to learn to be more patient and on time!!! had a tough time getting tru security and finding the darn old building.... anyway talked for quite awhile with mr koh... a very nice guy... but i doubt i am interested in the job should the call me up hahah :P

ok time to head for work later and trestment at perfect!!! cheeerioz!!!

MR C bettter forgive me! its not even my fault! hmph! still feeling sore! :P

till thennnnnnn

a song thats on my mind :) 非你莫属

(独白):你知道吗?

我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉

发生什么样子 我好希望再来一次

(verse 1)
懂得让我微笑的人

再没有谁比你有天份

轻易闯进我的心门

明天的美梦你完成

整个宇宙

浩瀚无边的尽头

每颗渺小星球

全都绕着你走

(chorus)
爱我 非你莫属

我只愿 守护

由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属

也许会 笑着哭

但那人是你所以

不怕苦

(verse 2)
懂得让我流泪的人

给的感动一定是最深

在我心中留下伤痕

你同时点亮了星辰

整个宇宙

浩瀚无边的尽头

每颗渺小星球

全都绕着你走

(chorus)
爱我 非你莫属

我只愿 守护

由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属

也许会 笑着哭

但那人是你所以

不怕苦

那麽多相遇

偏偏只和你

天造地设般产生奇迹

oh~ 我心的缝隙

我想除了你

任谁也无法填补这空虚

爱我 非你莫属

我只愿 守护

由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属

也许会 笑着哭

但那人是你所以

不怕苦

那个人是你所以

不怕苦

oh~ 我不怕苦

Brace yourself :)

interview with mtv asia on tuesday for position of Client Services Executive/Manager =)


i am going to take sometime to write what has been happening around the house... so here goes...

lets start from today yah?

3rd june 2007 (Sunday)

hmm how should i start? i started day waking up ard 11+, coz i slept late yest... i msg baobei if he wanted to meet up and go for the last day of the PC show, even so, we could juz meet up :)

was supposed to meet ard 3+ but some "intruder" juz called me on the phone and tok to me abt sex.. *LOL* (i think i should post a pic of him hahaha) well a certain Mr C called from his house phone to appologise for falling asleep yest without replying my msg and asked me back the same qsn.. "why do i prefer younger guys?" *LOL



yup this is him :)

so we continued talking from abt 2-330 ghesh shant go into details coz i juz duno what he's up to la... and as usual i was late to meet baobei, reached ard 415 .. ops..

we went amk hub to run errands, poor baby was so shacked up coz he didnt sleep much yest he went to temple in the morning with his mum to get a "pai wwei" for his grandpa. so we walked ard amk hub, bought his shampoo and later decided if we should still head for PC show... since i was kinda sexy hahahah :P *shux i totally forgot to take a pic of me*

anywayz we settled at novena square, and yea u guessed it, i bought another black high heel shoe, coz my current one is seriously like torn n tattered.. but satisfied :)

baobei went LJS to haf a fish wrap and a sucky drink be4 we headed home. On the way home, we drove to the curretnly develpoing site at sengkang which he had balloted for, hmmm *no ceommentz* but at least i finally got bb to speak his mind and let me know of his worries... pooor baby... he juz seemed so stress... but i feel helless.. guess the most i can do is shower him with all my luv hehe *smilez*

after sending bb home, i drove home preparing & very determind to go for my run =)
guess i can start slwo and slowly increase my intesity ... i ran about 6 runs, walked 1 round... i duno if its good or bad.. but at least i know i ca nstill run and did perspire abit :) so ya gambateee to me acheiving my goals and objective again!wait n see im making a comeback!!!! ah... was so tired that i juz feel asleep feeling so sweaty for abt an hour be4 i went for my bathe and rite now typing out this long entry.. afteer sending a few resumes i off to my cosy bed! feeling so dehydrated and tiredd..*eyes closing* good nite for the day :)



*going back in time*



2nd june 2007 (Saturday)

yet another long and fun filled planned out day :) met baby ard 11+ in the morning to haf lunch, at pasta mania UE square. shopped awhile be4 we headed to international plaza to meet ted wtih our ktv session (long awaited!!!! ever since i was so sick till now)

started abit 315- 715... kinda "impressed" with myself sometimes that i can still sing hahaha :P okok

anywayz didnt really sing enuff though most of the time i was the one singing ops :P
so we met up with ninglin for dinner, we walked a few places be4 we decide on wheelock place Big O cafe, as there werent many ppl ard... i didnt eat much.. duno why.. maybe my stomach wasnt very good, i had the specialty stew, ted and bb had fish, nglin had ribs, and later we orderd a choc cake "indecent obsession: and a cheesecake... the former was better :)

after dinner, we walked ard orchard road to LV shop coz ted wanted to buy a wallet.. he was still deciding, but too bad, when we arrived, the shop was closed... but we still wondered ard aimlessly through all the big names shops ahahah well u guessed it, in the end ted didnt get anothing :)

headed down to st. james power station, dropped ninglin along the way.

hmm the place is too hyped up... nothing special.. and wow wat a small world! i met jason and his wife there :) gosh and i duno wats up with me lately... i had earlier twisted my rigt toe while coming down from the car park of liat towers.. it still hurts now.. its alittle swollen... and at st. james i almost trippped and feell and missed a step, lucky bb and jason managed to hold my hand in time ... *ouch*

and so we left the hyped up place in search of other activities... ted suggest this bar at vivo which serves up nice beers, unfortunately they were closing at 12... so we moved on, lucky enuff there was a movice showtime at 1230 - SHREK 3! (gosh the babies were so cute!!!) heheh kinda short movie but guess its worth it... was dead beat when the movie finishd and i had to drive everyone home! *shagged myself* i reahced home ard 4am + ... be4 i msg that MR C... and kokned off ard 5+ ...

*day end*


31st may 2007 (thursday) - vesak day

mum wanted to buy all her kitchen stuff be4 GST prices increase, so brought her to TANGS to haf a look, since bb has more rebates on his cc card :)

met up at 11, as usual i am late again :P be4 shopping, had my favourite ding tai feng for lunch!!! my treat :)

mum brought quite alot of things, includes a braun grinder for her chillies, a tefal frying pan, a chopstick for frying and a spider man bag for kelvin :) after tat we headed home, such a jam at orchard road.. *little drizzle along the way*

met up with ted ard 430 for pool at usual place, dinner was aat a sucky vegeterain restaurant and all 3 of us ate the same sucky hor fun...bb was not satisfied, so i suggested going central mall for TCC :) we stayed for quite sometime, chilling out, reading magazines, be4 we heaeded home coz tmr is a working day! :)

*day end*


28th may 2007 (monday)

i met up with Qiqi for dinner at pepper lunch and shoppping :) a photo taken sometime ago




tats us at starbucks :)

hmm guess we mostly talked abt work stuff and little baby kassius :) cant realy remember the details much ghesh getting old :P

side track alittle, i went shopping at zara sometime ago and bght a little blac n white stripped dress... and a stupid blue colour bot shorts... silly me :P

i tried on 2 sizes, bought the bigger one, coz not that short.. hate my tighs la *UGH* pls juz zapp it away with some magic wand!!! managed to take some pics of it..




the shorter version ...




the one which i bought ...


hmm i duno wat else to say already... but im gona type my last entry for the nite.. and that will be my cuz bday celelbration at one degree 15 marina club @ sentosa... we had 3 rooms... so i will juz let the pictures to the talking... i am, juz so lazy to go into details... but it was fun! hot though, first day was kinda mundane and boring coz dun realy know wat to do, but we went to have dinenr at some suck restaurant at sijori resort that is filled with ppl!!! *turn off* anyway was too hungry to say anything.. then we headed to the snetosa show, songs of the sea.. $6 per person.. we had to Q for quite sometime coz theere were soooooooooooo many ppl aye show was ok... nothing fantastic after seeing all the disney land stuff :P

alright day ended.. the room was comfy! but i still cant sleep ... so next day, woke up early for breakfast, and headed out to sentosa again for luge ride and 4d max show! fun! heheh then we wnet back to reosrt, while waiting to check out, we juz couldnt take our eyes off the automated mahjong table... heheh it was freee!!! :P

ok no more details.. getting sleepy and azy here, juz post some pics :)



family potrait



me & bb eating cake





view of the toilet




view from room balcony





me in the kids playing room with a pool of colourful plastic balls :P



finally presenting the all important automated mahjong table!!!



the mahjong table!!!!


ok time to sleeep! :) get a job!

hmmmm :P something for my memories